Post by Thirteen on Jan 1, 2013 10:27:55 GMT
((I am doing this to keep this site alive. I don't it to die.))
Thirteen was not one to plan. She preferred to do things as they came. And the only way for things to happen was to wander around mindlessly and take in the scenery. Occasionally she came across people. To those who would die soon, Thirteen would point it out to them and laugh hysterically. Naturally, these people avoided her. To others, Thirteen would stare intently until they looked away.
Today was not very interesting to say the least. Rumors had spread about the crazy girl and now no one visited. Such boredom Thirteen experienced every day. Even the birds were avoiding her. Thirteen took the time to contemplate her feelings. She never cared much for feelings. They were useless. But now she was alone and had nothing better to do.
Loneliness. Thirteen was feeling loneliness. She thought about the feeling, debating whether it was a good feeling or a bad one. After some thought, Thirteen came to the conclusion that it was good and bad. However she had not yet thought if it was a good thing in her situation. This feeling was one she felt often. Many avoid her because of the unfortune she spreads. Did Thirteen want to be avoided? Thirteen shook her head then halted. What if she did want to be avoided? That would explain the reason she was a Damned. To be left all alone. But Thirteen didn't want to be alone. She wanted... company. But whose company? Eventually, Thirteen came up with an answer. She wanted to be accepted by society for who she was. Even if she was a Damned.
True, the Elementalists would not accept her but surely others would? If they could see past the crazy child, maybe they would find a more caring soul. Maybe they would see that Thirteen was not a killing machine. Maybe they would understand how Thirteen felt. Unclean. Unwanted. Unnecessary.
((If you've watched Black Butler you would understand what I mean in the last few words.))
Thirteen was not one to plan. She preferred to do things as they came. And the only way for things to happen was to wander around mindlessly and take in the scenery. Occasionally she came across people. To those who would die soon, Thirteen would point it out to them and laugh hysterically. Naturally, these people avoided her. To others, Thirteen would stare intently until they looked away.
Today was not very interesting to say the least. Rumors had spread about the crazy girl and now no one visited. Such boredom Thirteen experienced every day. Even the birds were avoiding her. Thirteen took the time to contemplate her feelings. She never cared much for feelings. They were useless. But now she was alone and had nothing better to do.
Loneliness. Thirteen was feeling loneliness. She thought about the feeling, debating whether it was a good feeling or a bad one. After some thought, Thirteen came to the conclusion that it was good and bad. However she had not yet thought if it was a good thing in her situation. This feeling was one she felt often. Many avoid her because of the unfortune she spreads. Did Thirteen want to be avoided? Thirteen shook her head then halted. What if she did want to be avoided? That would explain the reason she was a Damned. To be left all alone. But Thirteen didn't want to be alone. She wanted... company. But whose company? Eventually, Thirteen came up with an answer. She wanted to be accepted by society for who she was. Even if she was a Damned.
True, the Elementalists would not accept her but surely others would? If they could see past the crazy child, maybe they would find a more caring soul. Maybe they would see that Thirteen was not a killing machine. Maybe they would understand how Thirteen felt. Unclean. Unwanted. Unnecessary.
((If you've watched Black Butler you would understand what I mean in the last few words.))